Tuesday 12 July 2016

Open letter to my unborn daughter..

To my unborn daughter.

First, I’d like to say I love you. I know there are times you’ll think I don’t. Days you’ll misunderstand my intention for you and years you’ll slack off and wish I was not your mother. Days you'll smack the door at heights of adolescence and walk out on me in spite. But through all that, I hope not for one day will you doubt my love for you my princess, because being your mother will be and I'm sure, the most amazing thing to ever happen in my life. I hope you will forgive me if I am not the image you see on the T.V but deep down you will always know you are a piece of me walking around the world and wherever you are, my heart will always be your home.
I hope you grow up to be a beautiful woman. Not only for the eminence of your outside but also the perfection of the lady you will be. I hope that you will learn you are worthy. Much more than the pimples on your skin or whatever number it will be on the weighing scale. I want you to know that your body was meant to be just like that and that whether you have voluminous hips or not you have the perfect figure. That your smile can light up the whole world even without you trying. I hope you will fathom your beauty that will not only be comprehensible to you but to the whole world too. My love, I hope you will love you.
Sunshine, I hope you never know the cruelty of men. I hope you never fall in love with someone who you’ll end up wishing you never met. I hope you will learn to discern them. I hope you will never end up cursing at night, wondering where and why you went wrong and blaming God for the heartache. And that when the right one gets into your life, you will accept him as he is and fall in love wildly.
My love, I hope I will raise you to adore your father. To understand love from him so that you can learn to have higher standards of self esteem. That you are a princess and deserve only that. I hope you actually realize life is worth more that you’ll dream higher than me. That you will follow your dreams and not let society put you down for being too black or too you.
Baby girl, I pray that you will learn to accept yourself without having to conform to the worldly limits of validation. I hope you will not yearn for social media's acceptance and that your smile at the mirror is worth more than a thousand likes on a forced angle selfie. I hope that your energy will never run out and that just as I will raise you, you will learn to lead a kingdom.
Sweetheart, years later when I will have you. I hope you will laugh and giggle as you always do. I hope you will be happy. Fall in love and raise again. I hope you will be my daughter.

That you realize dreams are worth chasing and that you are worth every dime.  My heart, I hope you will learn to love you just like I do.